MY FIRST EVER BLOG AWARD

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


I would like to thank Yljien and her blog I Empower Myself for this nifty award. I have never received an award before like I said and this is much appreciated. I know this is a very good way to link to others but I want to bask in this first ever award so I really don't mind the marketing agenda behind it hehe.

Now back to reality. There are rules in accepting this honorary prize.

1.Copy and save the award.

2.Make a post in your blog (like this one and write in your own words).
3.In your post, mention the name of the blogger who awarded you together with her URL/link.
4.Please do leave a comment in this post.
5. Don't forget to contact the 15 bloggers to notify them that they have been chosen for this award.

Here are my recipients of the Best Blog Award...

 MGA LUTO NI DENNIS AT IBA PA      MY AFFAIR WITH ODESK    HOUSE ON A HILL

E KUSINERO   MY FAMILY HEALTH BLOG   THE CURE MANUAL   ECZEMA IS CURABLE

BO SANCHEZ  PREACHER IN BLUE JEANS ALOE VERA FOR HEALTH, BEAUTY & LUCK


THE GLOBAL MYSTIC  COURAGE PHILIPPINES   MILLION MOMMY NEXT DOOR

WOMEN'S SELF ESTEEM

Many more blogs to follow. Will be on the lookout for more blogs to bless.

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MOVING ON TO THE NEXT LEVEL

Sunday, October 11, 2009

I have just attended another celebration of the Feast at the Valle Verde Country at 10:30 am and once again I feel refreshed, energized and inspired. All my life I have never looked forward to Sundays until I started joining the Feast. This is my only chance in a week to get to dance, sing and pour my all to the Lord together with a live band and enthusiastic people around me. It is such a wonderful blessing. One day I hope I could bring my whole family along to experience it with me and see that worshipping the Lord is the most exciting and fantastic thing in the world. He makes everything glorious, so goes the song.

The past week was a revelation for me. I finished reading The School of Self-Applied Prevention Book I by the Barefoot Herbalist and it confirmed what I have been trying to incorporate in my life. That is, Nature is the only incorruptible teacher and we must never mess with what God has created. The human body is the most complex and beautiful thing in the world. To corrupt it with pharmaceutical drugs, vaccines and even with the wrong kinds of food will lead to disease and even death. It has been pointed out in the book that eating the wrong kinds of food has been linked to poor mental health. This means that whatever we put into our bodies affects our over-all mental, emotional, physical and even spiritual well-being. And I totally agree with the author's point of view.

For months now I have been struggling to re-organize my life, trying to keep in check with what I should prioritize but my moods and emotions keep getting in the way. I have told the Lord that when I would get home from work, I would not open the television or computer so that I could concentrate on Him to talk to Him and pray. Then I would read spiritual books so that I could get to know more about myself and my faith. But that never did happen. The first thing I do when  I get home is slump in front of the computer and surf for four hours until I get sleepy. After that I get too tired to pray so I just sleep then wake up and go to work. At work, I'd spend 8 hours in front of the computer only to go home and spend another 4 hours on the internet surfing every kind of nonsense you could think of. Another vicious and dangerous cycle for my spiritual degradation. Now I know why Jesus, Mama Mary and all the saints have been calling for fasting and sacrifice. Indulging on too much food and vices can serve as hindrances to spiritual growth. And the book by the Barefoot Herbalist affirms the fact that eating 3 meals a day makes man lazy and unproductive. While the man who fasts is mentally sharper and more receptive. For fasting, as a purifier of both body and mind it is without doubt the thing par excellence for the purpose, for not only is the body again as that of a new-born babe, but the mind is purged of unrighteous thoughts, and is occupied with the higher things of life, thus greatly aiding spiritual growth.

Ecclesiates 3 says "For everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven...". I guess this is my cue to go on to the next level and start focusing on my spiritual and emotional health and to stop dwelling on my financial setbacks. Focusing on my debt for the last couple of years has been detrimental to my religious well-being. It has been evident in all my prayers and aspirations. Everything that I have hoped for and wished for were mostly material and financial. Of course, there is nothing wrong with asking God for all my wants and needs. But to hope for trivial things will never give me true happiness. Wisdom and understanding is the real treasure that I must strive for and not instant and worldly gratification. Hearing the gospel today about Solomon's prayer not only was an aha moment for me. This is the much awaited turning point in my life and I am ready to move on to the next chapter. How foolish am I to even think that I am spiritually mature enough what with all the challenges, the crosses that I bear in all the 32 years of my life. Alas, I am just in the middle of the race and have yet to face more obstacles in my path. So during Mass earlier today I prayed to God that he would change me, change my attitude if I can't change my circumstance. I have been struggling for a couple of years now to be financially free and yet I am still on square one, not a penny richer than the day I started blogging. And my dreams of grandeur has quite strained my relationship with God for I am still anxious, ever worried of my family's future. With such thoughts I ask the Lord to forgive me. For to say that I have gained nothing for the last couple of years is an understatement. All the money in the world can never buy the wisdom and knowledge that I have attained in this wonderful journey. The spiritual, emotional, physical and mental gems that I have acquired are more than enough to satisfy the innermost cravings of my body and soul and I would be ludicrous and ungrateful if I don't utilize them to my advantage. It would be an insult not only to my intelligence but to God as well if I continue to be dense and ruin my chances for growth and freedom. In this regard, I have decided to continue writing for a new blog that I have created which I call "I Abstain". And this will then be my last article for Death to my Credit cards. Yes, it's time to start working on my physical well-being so that I will flourish spiritually. For the Lord right then and there answered my prayer and something clicked inside me. I have changed. Time to go beyond my petty vices and concentrate on my relationships. And I will chronicle my journey based on my attempts to hone my self-discipline and self-control. Hence I called it "I Abstain" because my life will revolve around my day to day fasting and abstinence and to write on how they will improve all aspects of my life. It will truly be wonderful and interesting. I am very excited because I am sure I would be a better person and Christian than I would ever imagine. I hope dear reader that you will still be with me on this rite of passage. Together we will learn and strive to be better imitators of Christ. Amen.

Lord, You have detached Yourself from everything — from Your family, from fame, even from Your life. You were totally free to do the will of Your Father. Free me, Lord, from my attachments that I may be completely free for You.

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ONDOY: From Tragedy to Opportunity

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

I wish we didn't have to experience such a tragedy just to bring out the best in us Filipinos. What a wonderful country it will be if all of us will do our share to help each other, pray for each other and love each other. Ondoy has stirred more than the Metropolis. It awakened our indifferent hearts and selfish ways. It shattered the wall that divides the rich from the poor. It made us look up to God and kneel down and pray to Him. It made us one nation at last.

I'm hoping history will not repeat itself. I pray that as a nation we stop forgetting and start acting. Apparently, it has been a significant and notable year for every Filipino. What with Cory Aquino's death and Ondoy's wrath, it is clear that we are being challenged to go beyond our comfort zones to start rebuilding our nation and improving our country. The call for change is getting more inevitable and noticeable. I hope we will not stop uniting and praying for one another even after the storm has passed. And more storms are still on the way. We must be prepared emotionally and spiritually.

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GOD IS THE PERFECT ADDICTION

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Ever since I attended the Feast at the Valle Verde club, I just cannot get enough of it. It's the day of the week that I look forward to more than Friday or Saturday. Sunday now is the day that I get to worship, dance and sing for the Lord. And it is so rejuvenating and uplifting to be with positive people who share the same sentiment after a week of working hard in the office. What a blessing to spend time with my fellow Catholics who are seeking inspiration, forgiveness, clarity and healing. And Bro. Bo Sanchez and the Light of Jesus Community surely delivers every Sabbath.

It's a perfect way to start the week, ready to face challenges and conquer temptations knowing that there is a God who will bless and protect us. To show how grateful I am to the Lord, I have started focusing on His Word and modern revelations. Instead of visiting adult sites, I spend most of my time downloading messages of Marian apparitions from Catholic Planet and posting it on my collection of prayers, my other blog The Secret to Happiness. There is so much to learn from seers and Marian apparitions on how to strengthen the faith and fight evil. Here are some e-books that will truly change your life from Anne, Lay apostle. Read God's messages through the series HEAVEN SPEAKS about
Abortion
Addictions
Depression
Divorce
Purgatory
Parents
Financial Need

Visit my blog The Secret to Happiness for more of God's messages! Seek God and He will change your life for the better! Amen! Be addicted to the Lord and leave all your sinful ways behind.

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DENIED PENANCE

Friday, September 18, 2009

It's Holy hour every Thursday at the Pasig Cathedral so I thought it was the perfect time to go to Confession yesterday to feel closer to the Lord and ask for forgiveness. I went there after work and a lot of people were falling in line and 4 priests were there to offer absolution.

It was dark inside the church. I was patiently waiting for my turn when I noticed that one of the priests was taking a long time talking to each confessor. I didn't want to confess to this priest but when it was my turn I had no choice but to go to him for he was the next available one to give this sacrament. I wanted to make it my best confession ever so I poured my heart out to him and as expected he took his time giving advice. He talked about how addictions are like a vicious cycle that can only do harm and how one must never lose hope especially in these trying times. His counsel was very enlightening and touching and I was very moved. But in the end he did a peculiar thing. He denied me absolution because my marriage has no blessing from the church. He pointed out that to give me absolution would do no good because I am not allowed to receive Holy Communion. It would be a double whammy if I took the Eucharist when I am living in sin with my spouse. In respect I thanked him for his time and left the church hurriedly. It felt like my heart was ripped right out of my chest and then stepped on real hard. I was crushed and shocked and very disappointed.

On my way home I realized the priest was right. This was the side of God that I have never seen before. This God was the disciplinarian that wanted me to really look into myself and see how far I am willing to go for Him. The priest had a point. After more than a decade of marriage and 3 children later, my hubby and I have yet to receive the Sacrament of Matrimony. For a devout Catholic I was definitely slacking. Sure I have a million excuses of my own but 11 years is just too long. My mom was probably right. We need our marriage to be blessed by God in order to live a fuller and richer life. This has been a hindrance to our financial and spiritual growth for many years and its time to be responsible and take action.

Most people in my place would have condemned this priest or worse, lose their faith and ex-communicate themselves. What happened to me yesterday was a very humiliating and humbling experience. I do believe that God was with this priest asking me to stand up for Him and to grow up. I have seen how wonderful His ways are and His love. It's time I do my part and show my faith and act upon it. I have become a hypocrite for not living up to my promises and I must stop and prove how much I am willing to go for the Lord. Life is an ongoing battle and one must strive to be vigilant for the devil is cunning and the world is a big trap. I choose to live and to avoid eternal damnation because in the end, my soul is worth the fight. I have only to remind myself that the stakes are high and the penalty is perpetual. But the rewards are priceless even for the living. Just watch the 700 Club on TV and see how precious it is to have peace of mind and how wonderful it is to have a deep and meaningful relationship with Jesus. It is far greater than riches or vices in this world. For the love of God is unconditional and merciful. The Word of God is all powerful and satisfying and full of wisdom.

Thank you Lord for teaching me to persevere and not lose hope, to fight for my faith and stand up for you, to be humble and grateful each day and to keep on praying and striving to be a better Christian. I have sinned and have continued with my wicked ways. You are right Lord, this vicious cycle has got to stop and I must start acting and living a fervent life. For faith without action is useless. And I do not want to live like a hypocrite and regret it in the end. Have mercy on me O God and deliver me from evil. Amen.


1 Timothy 6:2c-12
2 Beloved: Teach and urge these things. 3 Whoever teaches something different and does not agree with the sound words of our Lord Jesus Christ and the religious teaching 4 is conceited, understanding nothing, and has a morbid disposition for arguments and verbal disputes. From these come envy, rivalry, insults, evil suspicions, 5 and mutual friction among people with corrupted minds, who are deprived of the truth, supposing religion to be a means of gain. 6 Indeed, religion with contentment is a great gain. 7 For we brought nothing into the world, just as we shall not be able to take anything out of it. 8 If we have food and clothing, we shall be content with that. 9 Those who want to be rich are falling into temptation and into a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires, which plunge them into ruin and destruction. 10 For the love of money is the root of all evils, and some people in their desire for it have strayed from the faith and have pierced themselves with many pains. 11 But you, man of God, avoid all this. Instead, pursue righteousness, devotion, faith, love, patience, and gentleness. 12 Compete well for the faith. Lay hold of eternal life, to which you were called when you made the noble confession in the presence of many witnesses.

P S A L M

Psalm 49:6-7. 8-10. 17-18. 19-20
R: Blessed the poor in spirit; the Kingdom of heaven is theirs!
5 [6] Why should I fear in evil days when my wicked ensnarers ring me round? 6 [7] They trust in their wealth; the abundance of their riches is their boast. (R) 7 [8] Yet in no way can a man redeem himself, or pay his own ransom to God; 8 [9] too high is the price to redeem one’s life; he would never have enough 9 [10] to remain alive always and not see destruction. (R) 16 [17] Fear not when a man grows rich, when the wealth of his house becomes great, 17 [18] for when he dies, he shall take none of it; his wealth shall not follow him down. (R) 18 [19] Though in his lifetime he counted himself blessed, “They will praise you for doing well for yourself,” 19 [20] he shall join the circle of his forebears who shall never more see light. (R)

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICKEY BOY!!!

Sunday, September 13, 2009


You are 6 years old now my loving child and we are very proud of you. You're such a sweet, funny, loving, compassionate and intelligent boy. Mama and Papa misses you so much. Enjoy your special day and God be with you Mickey boy! We love you heaps!!!

HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICKEY BOY!!!

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TRUE LOVE IS NOT ROMANTIC

Thursday, September 10, 2009

12 Brothers and sisters: Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, heartfelt compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience, 13 bearing with one another and forgiving one another, if one has a grievance against another; as the Lord has forgiven you, so must you also do. 14 And over all these put on love, that is, the bond of perfection. 15 And let the peace of Christ control your hearts, the peace into which you were also called in one body. And be thankful. 16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, as in all wisdom you teach and admonish one another, singing psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. 17 And whatever you do, in word or in deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him. Colossians 3:12-17
The key to a life of holiness is not how we feel about things, but the decisions we make to embrace the truth God reveals to us in the Scriptures and through prayer.

Today's reading gives us the true meaning of love and happiness. The secret to living a full life is to challenge ourselves not to follow the crowd and not to embrace the disillusion of romantic love. Unconditional love and a humble and pious attitude is very important to keep the family intact and to save your marriage. And all the truth that we need to know about living and loving can be found in the Bible. So friend I urge you to subscribe to Kerygma family and get a daily dose of the Gospel plus some reflections from the faithful. Reading the Scriptures daily and praying are powerful tools to avoid the path to sin that will lead to the damnation of our souls.
As a wifey and mom for more than a decade, I have been challenged by many trials and tribulations that require me to give up my pride and to sacrifice my own will. Some people find this absurd and they would ask me to move on and walk away so that I would be happy. But I choose not to follow the easy way out like most people do. Looking at the divorce rate today and the number of abandoned and scorned children, I feel sorry for these families and have promised myself not to give up on my own hubby and kids. I figured if I could not make it work for this family, I certainly could not make it work with a new one. So in times of difficulty I humble myself and think of how Jesus suffered for me and compare it to my petty problems. Somehow this eases the pain while I offer it to the Lord in prayer and focus on the many blessings that I have received inspite of everything that has happened. Then a miracle would follow...the air would clear up, the nemesis would give in, the burden would be lifted and I have survived and learned and have forgiven. This is the power of prayer. Without it, I would be part of the divorce statistic. For there are evil machinations attacking families every second of every day and if one is not vigilant and armed with prayer and sacrifice, then the battle will surely be lost. That is why I am in awe of how much I have gained from my relationship with the Lord. With him as my strength and my focus, my family is intact. I depend on him to watch over my children and my hubby and to help us love and forgive one another. And the blessings are just abundant and overwhelming. Love conquers all and prayer brings peace and mercy to the home.

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JUST PASS ME OVER

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

During the weekend I was able to catch this cancelled TV series called THIEF. It wasn't that remarkable for a show but I just couldn't get the song out of my head, the background song before the show ended. After googling it for half an hour finally I was able to figure out the title. It is Anthony Hamilton's Pass Me Over. Let me share to you the video link and lyrics. Here goes...

PASS ME OVER

Verse 1:
Another day
Chance to make another chance
A fragile place
Running on empty
A smile so faint
Barely even breaks the space
Worlds on shoulders now

Don't be afraid
He who knows will make a way
His word alone is what has kept me
Born a son, king of eternal peace
Lay your burdens down

Chorus:
If you catch me dreaming
Please don't wake me till I'm done
Just leave me sleeping
Until the morning comes
Just pass me over
Make believe that I'm not there
Just leave me be
Until the savior comes

Verse 2:
Another night
Makes her way to the morn
Sleep in peace, joy come early
A covered child, steps away victorious
Salvation holds joy for all of us

Chorus 2x

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA MARY!!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

I was very fortunate to witness today the welcoming of Our Lady of Caysasay's image at the Immaculate Conception Cathedral in Pasig this morning. This historical statue of our Dear Mother is 400 years old and very miraculous. I was very jubilant and excited to pour out my wishes and thanksgiving prayers and birthday greetings to her wonderful presence. Everyone welcomed her by praying the rosary and taking pictures and touching her with veneration. Here is the story behind her miraculous image from Caysasay.com.

The Story of OUR LADY OF CAYSASAY

In 1603, a fisherman by the name of Juan Maningkad fished out his net in the Pansipit River, in Taal, Batangas, a twelve inch tall image of OUR LADY OF CAYSASAY, radiating with heavenly luster. Upon seeing this image, Juan, being a pious man prostrated himself and venerated it, after which he carried the image home. Soon enough, the whole village came to know about his remarkable catch. The town authorities and the Vicar, who represented the King of Spain, went to Juan’s home to verify the story.

The image was later placed under the care of Doña Maria Espiritu, the widow of the town’s judge, who had a special urn made for its safekeeping. Then, strange things began to happen. Doña Maria found the urn empty one day, but the next
morning, the image was back in the urn. The incident was repeated a number of times, so Doña Maria reported the matter to the parish priest. To investigate the mysterious coming and going of the image, the priest decided to set up parish volunteers to keep vigil beside the urn. With eager hearts they sat waiting and praying, and they did see the urn open by itself, as they saw with their own eyes the glorious image going out and coming back again.

This time, the priest decided that the villagers should now come with lighted candles and follow the image the next time it left. When this finally happened, the image led them to Caysasay, to the place where it was originally found. When the image returned to the urn, the priest decided to transfer it from Doña Maria Espiritu’s house to the town church for safekeeping. But the same thing happened in the church, until the image completely disappeared and was nowhere to be found.

After Several years in 1611, two women by the names of Maria Bagohin and Maria Talain, were gathering firewood near the place where the image ws originally found. They saw the image reflected in the spring water that had sprung on the spot. They looked up and saw the image atop the branch of a tall sampaga bush with two lighted candles on each side, amongst kingfisher birds called casaycasay which the Spaniards at that time pronounced as caysasay. They hurried back to town and reported to the parish priest. The people and the parish priest finally concluded that it was the Virgin’s wish to stay in Caysasay, so they decided to build a chapel on the very spot where the image was found.

It was also in 1611 that the first apparition of Our Lady to an almost blind native servant girl, Juana Tangui and around 30 women, was recorded by the church ordinario. This was the first recorded Marian apparition in the country. From the miraculous cure of her eyes during the apparition, the well water, now known as “Balon ng Sta. Lucia” and the adjoining stream, now known as “Banal na Tubig” have been known to possess miraculous attributes of healing to this day. An arch with pediment was constructed after 1611 over the wells, which generally marks the spot of her apparitions, and is today called “Banal na Pook”.


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MY PRIORITY PROBLEM, DARK ADDICTIONS AND INNER STRUGGLES

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Through You the blind will see
Through You the mute will sing
Through You the dead will rise
Through You all hearts will praise
Through You the darkness flees
Through You my heart screams
I am free
I am free to run
I am free to dance
I am free to live for You
I AM FREE... - Hillsong United


Yesterday's gospel was all about healing. I praised God with an open heart and too willing soul for this wonderful blessing. I wanted so bad to be forgiven for all these emotional baggage and evil afflictions brewing inside of me. I keep on sinning and violating His laws and the burden on me is just too much to bear. But God is good and he never lets me down. He knows what I need and He shows me how kind and loving He is. Despite everything I did to disappoint Him, he accepts and forgives and loves me for who I am. And I could always see and feel His presence even during those times when I basking in my evil ways, intoxicated in my dark addictions.

Like most people, I had a priority problem. I never found the time to pray and talk to God each day. I would rather spend most of my time socializing online and chatting with friends. I had 2 FB accounts. One was for Facebook and the other was for my online f*ck buddy. I was addicted to porn stars and would enjoy having sexual fantasies most of the time. I have also started smoking and drinking again. I am just too busy to make time for the Lord and be closer to Him plus the fact that I was so guilty because I felt so dirty inside. I have so many problems that I wanted to get distracted and take matters into my own hands. I still considered doing porn so that I could get rich quick and enjoy having sex with beautiful foreigners. Greed and lust was destroying my relationship with the Lord. It was also ruining my bond with my husband.

In the midst of all the darkness in my life I still hoped for the Lord. I wanted Him to save me from my inner struggles, to cure me of my afflictions. I longed for His mercy and He gave it to me yesterday, during the Feast celebration with Bro. Bo Sanchez. I felt that the 3 hour session was all tailor-made for me. It was so personal, so perfect, so liberating that after it all, I shook Bro. Bo's hand and told him thus, "Thank you Bro., gumaling ako (I was healed) today." And he said, "Praise God! That's wonderful!". It was music to my ears.

I haven't gone to confession yet but what happened at the Feast really did heal me of my spiritual diseases. To hear Fr. Steve Tynan's sermon, to sing and dance the song I Am Free with everyone present, to hear Bro. Bo preach on healing, it was what my heart and soul needed. It was pure spiritual nourishment or remedy if you will. Today, I have stopped fantasizing every minute about porn. I didn't get the urge to smoke a cigarette. I talked to the Lord and Mama Mary and prayed the rosary. I also cried buckets because I remembered my personal and financial problems. But that's okay, God will take care of me. And I am happy. For I am setting my priorities straight, I am rebuilding my relationship with the Lord. And the fact that I AM FREE. Free from sin and temptation. And I will continue to be free to serve my God and to hope in Him. And I am grateful for Mama Mary's generosity. It's her birthday tomorrow and yet she has given me the best gift and that is the gift of healing. Amen! Praise God! May God heal you too today.

Say to those whose hearts are frightened: Be strong, fear not! Here is your God, he comes with vindication; With divine recompense he comes to save you. – Isaiah 35:4

Love covers all wrong. - Proverbs 10:12

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