SPREADING SOME BLOG LOVE

Yes I am ashamed. I have abandoned this blog. And my fellow bloggers have started to notice.  I hope you'll find it in your heart to forgive me my friends. This is a blogging crime I've committed here. And I'm guilty of 5 counts of desertion. I've been pretty busy with my work esp. after that unexpected promotion at the office. I wanted to focus on how I could turn thoughts into things and conquer my goliaths, which is how Bro. Bo Sanchez puts it. For sure there's more work to be done than just cutting up my credit cards and starting to save for the future. And blogging doesn't really put money in the bank.

Yes I am getting antsy again. This is actually a bad sign spiritually. I'm losing faith and my focus. I keep wanting to do everything to improve my life. Been reading 5 books at the same time, working overtime at the office and always in search of a sideline. And at the end of the day, I'm totally exhausted. I push myself too hard, and all those self help books are not exactly sinking in after all this time.

It's frustrating I know. I'm sure you can feel the negative vibe on my end. This is a product of my lousy childhood I guess. If you really want to know, my parents played favorites. And yes I was not the apple of their eyes. I was more of a dumping ground for their frustrations. As young as 8 years old, everyday I had to endure my mother's criticism of my looks and inadequacies. And up until now she still doesn't see anything good in me. In short, she is ashamed of me. That's the story of my life ladies and gents. Sorry I had to vent it out on you.

Needless to say I'm still in debt and still trying to overcome my demons. But hopefully this silly technique I chanced upon could help me get my groove on. I've come across this method before but kept ignoring it. But after Dr. Mercola recommended it, I decided to subscribe to their newsletter. Amazingly, it looks promising and I can't wait to try it. I have yet to do it but it fills me with such hope that I cannot contain myself. The remedy I'm talking about is called EFT or Emotional Freedom Technique. It involves tapping energy points on the body for a person to overcome fears, phobias, addictions, trauma, allergies and all sorts of physical illnesses. After all a huge majority of our diseases are psychosomatic, this is according to the medical community.

Right now I believe that the best is yet to come. My past does not define my future. And I'm moving forward! I know that I cannot fully recover until I overcome my childhood trauma and increase my faith in myself. God is with me and my family is counting on me. I will be successful someday and I will be financially free soon.

I thank you dear reader for sharing this emotional ride with me. Blogging is the most wonderful outlet for me as a frustrated writer. And I am esp. grateful to my fellow bloggers who have encouraged me to keep on blogging. I am baring my soul here, and I have yet to receive any bad comments from you guys. I appreciate that, inspite of the fact that I have very low self-esteem and I'm ranting about my weaknesses. Pro bloggers would rarely admit their shortcomings. As a gesture of my appreciation, I am now open to link exchange and will be updating this blog weekly. Just my way of spreading some blog love. Because bloggers have more fun and we rock!!! Bless you all!